can I just cry out??

I tot I will not open this bloggar and write something... But seem I'm wrong
Its already many years I have not write my diary.... 
Once I came back from National Services Camp many things happen in my life..
The things just happen all the way.. I admit sometimes I cant control my emotinal and I knew my friends know it as well.............
Before goin there I already warn myself not to couple with someone else...
But I break the warn..
And we couple just for 9 Day and we ended up...
When a guy wanna chase you , he will promise u every single things ..
I know that you know you're wrong but u doesn't wanna admit it and you are the wan who say break up ..so I respect ur decision I have nothing to say it...
After this incident I actually cried and no ones know it , my mood down..................
The next things happen again, FRIENDS?? what mean friends I really don't really get it ...
FINE..... since so many years I have no friends beside me.. I'm OK ...
After that, family problem come in... woots such a nice experience ...
hahahhahahahhahhaha... I don't really know what am I writing I just need a place to release my stress ... thats all... lastly, I really Love you eventhough I know you are playboy,bad-temper.... I can't forget you actually but I pretend nothing.. So , the last question I wanna ask you, Do You Love Me??